That Passing Feeling When

You think
you want to die
but what you really
want is to stop feeling
that nasty ache
in your chest
that lets you know
all is not well
and eating right
and brewing herbs
and living simply
and having a nap
isn’t relieving it
and neither does
the sensory deprivation tank
it is in fact just
underwhelming
all around
and you yourself are
an energy healer
and yet the ache
is dull and painless
almost undeserving
of attention
and yet impossible
to ignore
and that trance journey
revealed little besides
the intricacy of things
and their unending
complexity
and your questions
just led to more questions
and the Gods don’t know
but what they do show you
has little bearing on
life lived in a body
within the bounds
of space & time
it is of course intriguing
and beautiful but
also impossible to
communicate while
still maintaining the
gravitas and wonder
you experienced as it
was revealed to you
as drawn by an energy
best described as
“otherworldly”
through your own hand