You’ve been reading about
the bells in Japan
xxxxxxxturning past the sad points
xxxxxxxrip them out
xxxxxxxI say
You have enough sadness
xxxxxxxso do I
You’ve been reading about
the bells in Japan
xxxxxxxturning past the sad points
xxxxxxxrip them out
xxxxxxxI say
You have enough sadness
xxxxxxxso do I
Upon holding a raisin gently between two fingers —
Something which is soft and fleshy at its core
xxxxxxxalone with my father
xxxxxxxhe in his hospital bed
xxxxxxxtoo soft, too fleshy
xxxxxxxa pelvis too narrow for the
xxxxxxxmachine’s arm to pass
xxxxxxxcomplications
xxxxxxxnurses, orderlies pass in the hall
xxxxxxxvoices
failure
xxxxxxxyou deserve this, it’s what you
xxxxxxxasked for
First, pile stalky green leaves high in the pan
turn the heat on, so that they begin to wilt
olive oil
more leaves, more leaves
babies
That’s enough
onto a plate they go to rest
Now a knife of butter
two eggs cracked
deposit the broken, jumbled shells into the compost bag
getting fat
spreading its girth over the freezer floor
Once the eggs are going,
walk into the living room and say something to the cat
Salt, pepper, red chile
The round brown pita goes under the broiler
The whites of the eggs have gone hard, glisten
All of it goes onto the plate, nestled gently in the greens
the pita, warmed, torn in four equal pieces
arranged around
Remembering yesterday’s breakfast
the cat will stand ready
crowd the plate
as you eat
all of us in the kitchen
xxxxxwhere it is warm
it is damp out
xxxxxevening
the radio plays
xxxxxthere is a fire in the wood stove
no hint you’ll grow old
xxxxxbuy a house
xxxxxand nearly set it on fire
setting newspapers on top of the wood stove
setting matches there too
do you want to burn it all down?
laid bare
xxxxI will bundle you up again and again
in whatever soft blanket I find
xxxxI will bury you deep
xxxxdeeper than the last time
xxxxand the time before that
Your bones in my backyard
xxxxnow someone else’s
now mine
You rise to shut the window.
I rise to leave.
I’ll just sit outside now —
xxxxxthe cold night air does not trouble me
There’s this crinkling wind
xxxxxthis feeling of possibility
now that sadness has lifted
xxxxxand fallen again
Whatever happened to your friend —
xxxxxthe one who lived in Montclair
[the one you took to the hospital that night after Thanksgiving, after making macaroni and cheese on the stove of his emptied apartment]
Emptied after the divorce —
Years late I tell you on the phone,
xxxxxin the park
I don’t want to hear this
yet again
xxxxxthe story of what happened.